Have you ever been afraid of your own heart,
Forever afraid it will fall apart?
Have you ever lived in fear of losing your mind,
Knowing it's just a matter of time?
My mind is savage, tearing apart
What is left of my quivering heart.
I walk a knife edge of tears and rage,
Falling to pieces at the end of the day.
Nobody sees the pain that's inside, I try never to share, only to hide.
It slips out in angry bursts
In words only meant to hurt.
I torment those I love the most
I ruin things because I am a ghost
Of myself, not happy and free
Not sparkling like I used to be.
I wish I could be who I was
Full of laughter and brimming with love.
I try each day to mend my heart
Before my soul is torn apart.
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