I Wont Break This Mirror..
Disrespecting My Grandma's House I Would Never,
Why Am I Looking At A 28 Yr Old Woman Without Her Shit Together?
Where The Fuck Did Everything Go Wrong?
I Don't Know How Much Longer I Can Be Strong,
Im Starting To Think At Home With The Devil Is Where I Truly Belong.
Im Looking Again,
This Time There's Something Else That I See,
A Little Girl In A Red Dress, Wait A Minute.. That Little Girl Is Me.
My Mama Was Only 16 And My....Was 21,
Trying To Be Daddy's Little Girl While He Was Wishing He Had A Son.
Mama Always Promised To Love And Watch Over Me,
I Know She Tried Her Best But Growing Up At Home Was My Enemy.
Those Late Night Tears That My Parents Chose To Ignore,
Led Me To Fuck My Life Up Waisting It Away Like WTF Do I Want It For?
In School I Was Never The Smartest,
Trying To Concentrate Was The Hardest,
Tried To Make My Dad Proud Cause Graduating Highschool Is What I Promised.
I Had No Choice But To Promise Because All My Dad Did Was Yell,
Constantly Telling Me Im Worthless All I Do Is Fuck Up And Fail.
My School Work Never Got Completed,
Something Was Wrong I Shouldve Been Treated..
I Needed Their Love, I Needed Real Help
But They Thought Sending Me Away Is What THEY Needed.
Was It Because I Said I Was Gay?
You Had To Send Me Miles Away?
A Secretly Abusive Treatment Center That They Call D.R.A.
How The Fuck Was Home Without Me?
How Did The Cancun Trip Go Without Me?
Wouldn't Even Let Me Call My Friends Or Let Them Check Up On Me.
You All Thought I Was Dramatic And Hurricane Utah Is Where I Needed To Be,
You Couldve Just Helped Me Once, And Found Out I Just Had A.D.H.D
I Just Wanna Know,
How Would You Feel Being Taken Away From Your Family?
Now How Do You Feel Knowing YOU Were The Family That Abandoned Me?
12 Years Later And Still Think Fucking Up My Life Is What I Did,
I Bet Now You Regret It Because This Place Really Fucked Up Your Kid.
Mom, Dad...I Know Talking About It Is Something You Both Hate To Do,
I Know Deep Down You’re Hurting To Read This, Just Know That I Forgive You.
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