Theres Always a First

Anxiety fillled me as I awaited the moments in which my life would change, you are special my first something I would never forget
As the moment grew nearner we began to look and smile at each other as if we had know each other for years... slowly as you bought your face towards mine before shutting my eyes I gazed in to yours green my favorite color.
As I shut my eyes I had been taken into a universe that I had just got a key to unlock the door to ... It happened my lips met yours wow this is actually happening.... I thought to myself; this is weird... am I actually doing this ?
Time had stood still it had just been me and another human being reaching another level of intimacy wow I had actually opened myself up to someone/ the world and recived  it back.
How do you say I was vunerable? I learned in that moment that it is okay to let your guard down and give yourself to someone? Weird....
Love had been a concept that I hadn't yet understood but in that moment I had became an expert... wow Ania you actually did it ... what are you afraid of now? I pulled away and began to laugh as I looked you in your eyes wow this is so weird I said.... we dont have to keeping doing it if its weird you said... yet you didnt know I didnt want it to stop.