Forgiving a monster is easier said than done and nobody knows this more acutely than you do right now.
You would rather crawl under a rock and cry rather than to face him again with those icily calculating eyes and his equally malicious words that make you feel less than a zero with flawless smoothness.
You know how this monster will never see the error of his small cruelties and aggressive touches that will leave invisible scars on your heart and mind.
You are the one who knows the truth behind that plastic mask he wears with pride to the world, his blind audience, ready to lap up any attention he may give.
And now to forgive him for all the horrors you have endured at his hands.
You may wonder what I may think of you forgiving this monster disguised as a man.
I personally believe you should forgive yourself for what has happened.
I do not suggest placing the entirety of the blame and responsibility upon your weary shoulders.
All of those cruelties he deliberately inflicted upon you shows more about his atrocious nature than what it did about your beautiful heart.
You will need to find time to fully and completely heal and that will take crying, screaming, hot baths, frustration, anger, and everything else in between.
You are here in this amazing support group for a good reason.
You are a beautiful survivor who has endured the most horrific of all relationships and yet you are still here.
Enduring, surviving, healing, educating, and living!